On being candid

Whoever said being candid is distasteful. What if it would alleviate the heavy burden that your heart is carrying. I just did the inevitable. I sent him a message and wished him a happy and safe trip. That's way overboard already but what the heck. I can't seem to get him off my head. How long will this last? I am really in love with this guy although he's not paying attention to me. It might even cause me my job. But I am still hoping that he is mature enough to handle my qualms. I know that he knows it real well. I've been very good at giving out clues. But what's hurting me most is that he is just not buying the idea. I always get a cold shrug off his shoulder. But deep inside I know that he also feels something but he's just way too professional and such a perfect gentleman to avoid the topic and be business-like all through out. I pray that this strong emotions subside in two weeks time and when he's back, I won't have to suffer anymore. I wanna be healed, if love is a disease then I wanna take a pill and get it off my system.